in HIS time
Hey, I feel great in you today. So what are we up to? Yeah, you decide. I trust you – because I trust Him, so have faith. God is in us.
I am sure yesterday will be the last. You decided, so I will stick to that word. Because, I believe in you; you already fought her for good; she already died a long time ago. What? Sorry to disappoint you, but, I don’t think – I just believe. Come on, about depression coming back, it is all up to you. You said it yourself yesterday, it was distrust; that is why you have me, remember?
Before, it was just you and her; I wasn’t there, yet, I will never be sorry for that. Because I know I came in time. If you have chosen her, you are probably dead by now; or you might not be able to know Him. Then, we won’t meet, nor have these gifts I brought with me, as well as the fruit you need to bear. I came from Him through the Holy Spirit, don’t I?
I never leave. You have accepted me from Him, so why would I do that? It came back to you yesterday because you don’t trust me enough. You lied to me; you had her memory. You ignored what I said that she was a trickster; the past was her playground. That was why you were suspicious of them. Have you learned by now? It is okay. By repenting, I felt love. God let me bring it with me so that I can forgive you. That way, you can forgive them, too. I will never leave you – this is my task from God.
You are asking what I think about JRCF. Of course, I am thankful; they are a blessing to many. You had your reunion with Him because of them, and then, you found ‘me’ in yourself.
Wait. Something just made sense to me, yeah, it really does. I mean, your pseudonym – ilawdagitab. If I remember, it is the name Jesus gave when you first met him, and you thought you would be one – an instrument to hold the Light. But since you were unaware of my presence, you were not prepared that time; it was you who waited for someone to light your “home”. In the long run, getting washed down by the shores, you found yourself blinded by her tricks, thus, losing even your way home. It was then that JRCF – also, there is IVCF – who served as your “lamppost”. You saw your way back, that when Jesus knocked, you even saw me as you opened your door.
For that, I want to thank you, for hanging on; for waiting for His plans. Even though you are kind of slow, finding me, I understand. It was hard for you. But that was what God wants you to bear – the feeling of having nothing, losing even your self, so all you can do is surrender to Him.
You still worry, though God already told you not to. Why? Ah, you want to be ilawdagitab. Well, you are – it is your name, isn’t it? Yes, you are slow, I already mentioned that. Indeed, they seemed prepared, but you can’t really be sure about it. They have their own battles, too, so don’t compare.
There is one thing I want to tell you, which I believe will help: I am you. The fact that we know each other means you are capable of what I can do – that you have what I brought with me when God restored you. I am the new you. So it will be us, as one: no more lies or secrets. If not ready, then, let us prepare. If you are still waiting, then, serve while waiting. Let us nurture what you have got – skills and talents – not spoiling what I have brought for you. You aren’t late; God has his own time. Do not worry about it; just believe – it will come.
All of these was tough but not bad. The truth is I am even excited about what will happen next! I got no clue – I don’t think, remember – but I have faith that God is preparing you for something great.
Moss
P.S. – Be the best of whatever you are. Take care: I can already feel El Niño.
ilaw-dagitab
